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Tomorrow I leave for Detroit, and my focus will slowly have to shift from Catherine to a very demanding, time consuming job. I hope I am able to handle it. It will be a very reluctant shift, and I'm afraid I won't be very good at my demanding job. Or maybe it won't seem so demanding this time, since now I am used to having a more demanding, 24/7 type of job.



I'm so nervous about Radio City. When I committed to the job back in April, Catherine was five months old. Everyone kept telling me that by the time October rolled around, she would be almost a year old and would be so much more independent. The reality is, she seems as much a baby to me as ever. She still nurses a lot, isn't very interested in solid foods, and is in the middle of terrible separation anxiety. I know we have to make it work, but I just can't see it being Coeds Need Cash as easy as people made it sound. Not that I thought it would be easy, but I also didn't think it would be this difficult. I have never been so nervous, or so unsure about anything in my life. It is not a good feeling.